Recovery

Hi. My name is Margarita and I'm an anti-feminist. I have been going to college for 7+years now and never could figure out what I wanted to be when I grew up. That's why I'm a non-education lit. major. My subconscious mind must have known that...........I don't want to be ANYTHING.

My struggle has been long and my path is never easy. For years I never questioned the feminist gender-equality propaganda that as a 70's child, I was naturally raised by. The "anything a man can do a woman can do better" philosophy was so grounded in our little girl worlds, that the idea of women and men being equal became a fact and went unquestioned. It was in my home. My mother was always the bread winner, the provider. So when my first marriage went to crap, I went to work. I was alone with the kid, so I had to! And I've been working ever since.

Now here I am, years later, with a MAN in the house...FINALLY, and I must go to work whether I want to or not because unless a woman marries a man with a REALLY good job that he got from a REALLY expensive education, it is too hard in this United States, for a family to live on one income. In my case, it is impossible. And what's more, it will remain impossible until I die or retire. And I blame it on the feminists who just WEREN'T content to stay at home and raise their children and clean their homes. They HAD to be productive members of the work force. Now 100% of the population needs a piece of the economic pie that was being made and brought home by the men. And the house still needs to be cleaned and the kids still need to be cared for. And because the majority of the physical labor is still done by men, who innately don't care for the house and kids as well yet (sorry feminists) DO handle physical labor better than us, the bulk of the "nesting" duties still fall to the women who now have to work outside the home!! So THANK YOU FEMINISTS for doubling our work. I suppose we women have a right to complain that since we're working too, our men should do 50% of the house work. Well, maybe...If both parties involved have cushy office jobs or jobs that are equally lax as far as physical exertion goes. But my guy goes to work every day in all kinds of weather and breaks his back shoveling holes and lifting bricks and swinging a sledgehammer, for 8 to 10 hours a day, sometimes 6 to 7 days a week. When he comes home, he's tired and hungry. I would love NOTHING more than to have a steamy meal waiting for him when he walks through the door, and the time give him a massage every night, or to rub lotion into his callouses (sorry Leo, it had to be said....for emphasis). But I can't. Because thanks to the women invading the economy, Leo gets half of what he should get for pay and I have to work and finish school so that maybe one day in the distant future, we can own one modest little home.

I suppose for the women who choose the single, childless life, the feminists scored big. But that is a small population. It is simply unnatural for mothers to have so many stresses in life. I am sensitive in my job as a mother and to my desire to make my husband-to-be feel appreciated and cared for. I have creativity coursing through my veins. I actually day dream about being able to express that. These days I dream about learning to sew, baking my own bread one time in my life, and you know...all that other kind of motherly shit that I never have time to learn. I dream about baking a pie! An APPLE pie...not an economic one. I dream about decorating the house and planting flowers. That is what I want to be when I grow up: a housewife. And I will never have my dream because we cannot afford it. Yes, there are a very small minority of super women who can work 40 hours a week and still keep up Martha Stewart-like nests, but is it a coincidence that Martha, the all knowing bread maker/bread winner, ended up in prison? Is it ironic, symbolic, metaphorical? I like to call it Karma. That's what she gets for trying to be the master of both economic and apple pies: one of them is gonna get burned.